Okay, so it's been a much longer hiatus than I would like to admit. I have been working on and off on my exercise since June, just more recently (like the holiday season and then some) off. The results, I have gained weight, feel sluggish, lost body confidence and just overall feel yucky. I'm not back to where I was, but I can tell you that gaining is NOT what I want.
I have been doing some soul searching of why I have gotten back to these horrible habits that I thought I had overcome. I cam across this video that Chalene posted to her blog:
Wow, just what I needed. I after my success last year, I was living under some false assumption that I had conquered my bad habits. And now that I have fallen off the wagon, so to say, I have been living under another false assumption that I can't change these bad habits that I always tend to revert to (overeating, lack of exercise, etc.)
I am breaking free of these chains and starting with a new normal. Does that make sense? I know how great it feels to eat well and to have a strong body and this is what I want for me in my life.
Last November I signed up to run the Ogden half marathon this May thinking I would do it with my friend who I ran it with in 2008. She decided against running it and I have been teetering back and forth not sure if I could do it on my own. This weekend I decided that I am going to do it, I want to do it and I can't wait to do it! I'll update this blog to reflect my new goals, but wanted to come in and get these thoughts on paper. Today I started with a short run down at the High School Track. I ran three of the six laps, as I am trying to ease back into things. I felt strong and like I could do more, so that was good!
2/17/2010 - 1.5 miles
2010 miles - 1.5 miles
I am so glad you are back Carrie. I liked how she said that we are never fully "over" emotional eating. I feel like I have been successful for SO long and yet I still find myself struggling with my food choices. I try not to get down on myself though because I know this is one of my challenges and ever day I have to overcome it. Someday I do really well and some days I don't. As long as I am always striving to do better then I am on my road to better health. I know you can do this and inspire so many of us. Keep letting me know how you are doing! I Love you!
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